Not optimistic!

If my morning so far is anything to go by, my beta will be negative.

I'm currently sat in the waiting room to have my bloods done but the drive here was awful.

One of the roads I normally use was closed so I had to find my way a different way. For the first time, I made the journey alone today due to ALS having just started a new job and not being able to get time off. It's only a blood test so I shouldn't have needed him - but having him navigate would have been a bonus.

Also, my car is making a funny noise when the engine is on and the car is stationary. I have a 50+ mile drive home so now I'm very nervous.

Oh... and it's horribly windy and I nearly got blown over walking up the hill to the clinic.

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I realised recently that I didn't post at all during the 2 week wait last time - probably because I was quietly optimistic and wasn't agonising over it like I am now!

Beta day tomorrow, it's going to be a long day waiting for the results. As last time, ALS will call for my results around 2pm and let me know when I get home from work at 4pm. Unfortunately, he has to go to work at 5pm so I'll be left to deal alone - on the bright side, if it's negative, I will head to work with him to use the gym, swimming pool and jacuzzi then come home and have a hot bath followed by a cocktail. I already feel good knowing I have a plan in place for bad news.

In terms of symptoms, I'm either pregnant or I'm getting ill. I keep feeling nauseous, my sciatica is back with a vengeance and I'm absolutely exhausted.

The nausea is probably the progesterone. The sciatica is probably the lack of exercise. The exhaustion is probably from how mentally draining this is and also a lack of exercise.

Trying to stay positive whilst preparing myself for the worst. Wish me luck!