Sunday, 28 November 2021

Pregnancy - 10 weeks

How far along?  10 weeks  

How big is baby?  The size of a fortune cookie.

Total weight gain/loss? I've stayed at 59.5 kg this week so no gain or loss.  My appetite has come back a bit so I'm expecting to start a gradual gain now.

Waist?  I actually started to notice a bit of a bump today so I'm going to start measuring from next week hopefully.

Stretchmarks?  Nothing for now.

Maternity clothes?  Nope.

Sleep?  Sleep has been reasonable apart from one rough night.  

Best moment this week?  Nothing specific but just seeing Oscar's little imagination starting to come into play.

Movement?  Nothing yet.

Food cravings?  Still very much the same - also macaroni cheese out of a box/packet.

Food aversions? Nothing major - I'll have an odd moment where I find something really off-putting but there's nothing that I've really been against on the whole. 

Gender?  Weirdly I had a moment where I was thinking about having a girl called Ava and then I had a dream that we found out at the scan that it was a girl.

Labour signs?  Nope.

Pregnancy symptoms?  Not so much this week.  I've felt nauseous but not half as much as the previous couple of weeks.  I've had real baby brain and been forgetting everything but otherwise I've been okay.

Belly button in or out?  In.

What I miss?  Being able to stay up late and still function the next day.  We have so much stuff to do to get the house ready for sale at the moment but I'm having to still have early nights otherwise I can't drag myself out of bed in the morning.

What I am looking forward to?  Getting the house valued this week and hopefully getting it in a reasonable state.

Upcoming appointments/scans? Scan on 10 December, Consultant on 10 January and midwife on 12 January.

Weekly wisdom?  Second pregnancies don't actually seem to go any faster - I thought the time would fly because I'm busy but it doesn't really feel that way, although the last couple of weeks have gone quicker.  However, I do often "forget" I'm pregnant because there are SO many other things on my mind at the moment.

Milestones?  I feel like I might be starting to get a little bit of a bump and look slightly pregnant, although it definitely isn't noticeable most of the time in clothes and gets slowly more noticeable throughout the day.

Bump Picture:

 
From this angle I'm definitely starting to look pregnant!

Saturday, 20 November 2021

Pregnancy - 9 weeks

 ow far along?  9 weeks  

How big is baby?  The size of a single chocolate - like one out of a Milk Tray.

Total weight gain/loss? I'm 59.5 kg today which is a 1.5 kg loss from last week and actually the lightest I've been this pregnancy so far but it's not totally unexpected as I've been full of cold and generally feeling rotten.

Waist?  When I start noticing a difference I'll start measuring... maybe.

Stretchmarks?  Nothing for now.

Maternity clothes?  Nah.

Sleep?  Sleep has been up and down this week.  Oscar has had a couple of nights of solid 11-hour sleeps but he's also had a couple of days with really long naps so later bedtimes and an early wake up or two.  A real mixed bag but we're generally just going with the flow with him and he's much happier.  It does however mean we've had very little time to do anything or even speak to each other as he's been generally going to bed a bit later and then I'm so tired I go up not long after.

Best moment this week?  A lovely family walk around Foremark Reservoir on Sunday morning and just generally seeing Oscar happier in himself.

Movement?  Nothing yet, hopefully another couple of months and I'll start to feel something!

Food cravings?  Salty food like ready salted crisps and McDonald's chips.  Fruity sweets also seem to be hitting the spot.  In terms of meals I could basically eat Admiral's Pie every damn day. 

Food aversions? Nothing really drastic but I have generally gone off my Cheerios which is making breakfast a bit more of a challenge and I've not actually been bothered about Lucozade either (pink lemonade flavour, zero sugar) which I usually have every day to wake me up with breakfast.  

Gender?  I briefly allowed myself to imagine it might be a girl this week but I'd still be very surprised.

Labour signs?  Nope.

Pregnancy symptoms?  Plenty of nausea again this week, mostly if I've been trying to do anything around the house for too long at a time.  I've been needing to pee constantly which is understandable while my uterus is on my bladder but it's caused issues this week as I've had a cold and I've peed myself so many times whilst coughing.  

Belly button in or out?  In.

What I miss?  Having evenings to watch films or spend time with Ant.  With Oscar going to bed later and me being knackered we haven't watched a movie in ages!

What I am looking forward to?  Finally seeing the midwife next week and getting my scan and consultant appointments booked in.

Upcoming appointments/scans?  Midwife on Tuesday this week!

Weekly wisdom?  Eat what you fancy.  I've lost weight this week through being ill and not being able to eat much however if I had tried to eat healthy I'd have lost a lot more.  Early pregnancy is rough and your body needs food to sustain you and your baby, who is growing rapidly, so just eat whatever you can stomach, take your vitamins and work on the healthy diet when you start to feel a bit better.

Milestones?  I've had my first illness during this pregnancy and survived it - I forgot how heavily I rely on cold & flu tablets to function when I'm ill normally!

Bump Picture:

Saturday, 13 November 2021

Winter Break!

 So last year we booked a holiday for November so that we would have something to look forward to if our transfer failed.  As it happened, it did fail.  However, we went back into lockdown and didn't manage to make it on holiday.  We moved it to February this year but once again were in lockdown so we moved it to this November and this week we finally made it to our destination.

We booked a lodge at Clumber Park which was again not too far away but this time we had a hot tub.  Obviously, being pregnant, I couldn't actually use the hot tub but that didn't bother me too much and honestly I don't think we would pay extra for one again as it didn't really get used much.  The site was literally just lodges and a little shop/cafe - unfortunately it didn't even have walking routes, or even parking.  Our lodge was the furthest away from the car park so we did a lot of trekking back and forth but it wasn't a major issue.  It is a shame, however, that the site we ended up on last time had a gym, pool, soft play and all sorts that was closed due to COVID and this time things would have been open but the site didn't really have anything.  All in all though it really didn't matter.

Our plan was to send Oscar to nursery on Monday so that we could get ourselves sorted, pack and tidy the house as check-in wasn't until 16:00.  However, with me being at home and him having a cold he was quite unsettled so we ended up keeping him at home which made it almost impossible to do anything.  How we managed to get everything done and get to the site by just after 16:00 I will never know!  We were a little apprehensive as Oscar's sleep had been awful and he had been having multiple meltdowns a day but we needn't have worried - it was wonderful. 

On the Monday evening we ordered Chinese (I haven't had crispy duck or egg fried rice in SO long and it was brilliant).  The kids didn't go to sleep until around 9 PM so we just nattered for a little bit and then headed off to bed ourselves.  Due to the set-up, Sam and Amy had the double room with Ezra in the travel cot, Oscar and I shared a twin room (but pushed the beds together) and Ant had the other twin room to himself.  Unfortunately Oscar had developed quite the cough, although only at night-time, so he regularly woke up coughing but he did sleep until 6 AM which was lovely.  We did realise that we had no mobile signal and no WiFi so we were a little panicked that we would have two small children in a lodge for four days with no Netflix but we managed just fine and it was lovely to disconnect from social media etc. 

On the Tuesday morning I nipped home to grab some essentials that we hadn't thought of - namely some DVDs, a hair dryer, washing up liquid etc that we anticipated having in the lodge but ended up without.  When I got back we went for breakfast in the cafe and used their WiFi to download a few bits on our phones for the kids to watch when we needed them sitting still.  In the afternoon we headed to Clumber Park for a walk.  It was quite chilly and windy and Oscar had a great time to start with but then did get a bit upset and whingy, wanting to go home.  He found a gall from an oak tree which he's not parted with since and we've learnt lots about wasps!  We had lasagna with garlic bread for dinner and both kids were asleep by 8 PM thanks to a busy days and no naps for either of them.  We spend our evening playing Cat (a version of Pictionary with cats) and then Exploding Kittens.

On Wednesday it was a bit miserable so we decided to head to a soft play in the morning.  Ant and I took Oscar to ASDA first to choose a reward for getting stickers on his chart (using the toilet/washing his hands and staying in bed until morning).  He chose a HUGE cuddly cat which he then decided he didn't want after we had paid for it... it was a whole kerfuffle!  Once we were all back and ready we went to soft play and had a solid two hours with the kids chasing around and having fun.  Oscar was a bit apprehensive about the slides but he did enjoy the ball pit and climbing around.  He mostly enjoyed the ice cream and his new squishy unicorn which he got from a £1 toy machine as his eventual reward for his chart.  It has ended up being quite a useful sensory tool and he even recognised himself that it helps him to calm down.  In the afternoon the Dixons went in the hot tub and Oscar sat on the side dangling his legs in then we all got ready for a walk.  Oscar nodded off in the car so ended up being really upset when we got there and we made the decision to just go back to the lodge however he had such a meltdown because he wanted everyone to go back with us that it took us a good half hour or more to get him home.  Once we got back he played really nicely for a while and I think he enjoyed having some space to play without Ezra around.  We had cottage pie in the evening and then watched Bear (absolutely terrible, do not recommend).  Again, the kids were in bed by about 8 so we had a decent chunk of time to work with.  I did make sure I was in bed by 10 every night though as I knew there was a chance of Oscar being up early and also, being pregnant, I'm generally just pretty tired.

Thursday was definitely the best day!  We went to the Tropical Butterfly House in Sheffield which was a mini zoo but also had the most beautiful tropical butterfly house, as the name suggests.  The kids had a whale of a time exploring and we managed a good three hours or so there before Oscar started to struggle.  Once back at the lodge everyone went in the hot tub (except me) although Oscar wasn't keen so we just wandered around outside chatting to the others.  In the evening we fetched takeaways - I got Burger King for Ant, McDonald's for Oscar and KFC for myself whilst the Dixons had Taco Bell.  Again, the kids were in bed at a reasonable time so we spent our last evening playing Unstable Unicorns.  Unfortunately, however, Oscar ended up coughing so much that he was sick at about 9:30 PM so I just ended up staying in bed with him after that.  Fortunately he had quite a settled night in the end though and we managed to just use the bedding from the spare bed in Ant's room. 

On Friday we had to check out by 9 AM so we basically just spent the morning packing and tidying up and then headed home.  Oscar didn't really eat much other than biscuits the whole time but in the week prior he hadn't even really eaten those so it was an improvement and by Wednesday he had really perked up from his cold and his energy levels had improved from the better sleep and decent amounts of food.  Obviously it was a totally different ball game as Oscar is now older and doesn't nap, Ezra has just dropped his nap and is now almost 2 instead of a 7 month old who could barely crawl last time. We definitely all needed eyes in the back of our heads at all times but it was so much fun.  All in all it was such a successful holiday and I'll add some of my highlights below:

- Oscar and Ezra's relationship 
The kids have never really acknowledged each other much before or played together but they were so cute together this week.  Oscar would ask Ezra for a cuddle, Ezra would oblige then Oscar would fall over to make him laugh.  Oscar immediately ran over if Ezra was crying to see if he was okay and it was just generally nice to see them interact.  Obviously Oscar found it hard sharing with Ezra, especially as he really loved Oscar's trike and scooter but generally he managed quite well although I think he did have quite a high level of anxiety whenever Ezra was around. 

- Extra pairs of hands
Although we didn't get Sam and Amy to look after Oscar as such, they became great bargaining tools when we were trying to get anywhere or do anything.  Oscar is never keen to get into the car but we made it a race to see who could get strapped in first and he enjoyed it after that... essentially everything became a race but they played along and it made our lives so much easier.  It also helped that he would decide he didn't want to go to bed but then as soon as they took Ezra to bed he accepted it was bedtime.

- No WiFi
When I realised we had no WiFi I panicked as I also had no mobile signal.  Don't get me wrong, it was an absolute pain when we were trying to organise anything/arrange to go anywhere although fortunately Sam had some signal so we got by.  However, it was so lovely to put my phone down and just spend time with Oscar, I'm sure that had an effect on his behaviour too.  I definitely feel like it's something I want to continue and in the two days since we have been home I've absolutely spent less time on my phone than I normally would.  It also meant Oscar had less screen time as he didn't just have immediate access to whatever he wanted on the TV.  The kids still watched a bit of CBeebies and a couple of DVDs (Frozen, Mr Tumble and Paw Patrol) but generally they didn't spend much time in front of the TV at all. 

- Tropical Butterfly House
We've never had the opportunity to take Oscar to the zoo before and he absolutely loved it.  He's really in his element learning new things and he absolutely adored the porcupines!  He loved looking at all the signs, asking what they said and what all the animals ate etc and it was just a joy to watch him suck up all the information like a sponge.  He keeps reminding me of random facts now we are home and it's wonderful.

- Recycling
I'm sure not many people would suggest that recycling was a highlight of their holiday but, just like last time, Oscar LOVED taking all the rubbish and recycling to the bins.  He did at least a couple of trips a day with either me or Ant and his face lit up whenever anyone emptied a plastic bottle or something that he knew would need to go to the recycling bins.  

There were a couple of challenging moments and I was definitely glad to be in my own bed last night (well, Oscar's) but it was by and large one of the best weeks of my life and definitely the highlight of this year.  We couldn't wish for better friends to go with and I certainly couldn't have enjoyed it much more, even the weather stayed pretty nice!

Friday, 12 November 2021

Pregnancy - 8 weeks

 How far along?  8 weeks  

How big is baby?  The size of a cola bottle - the sweet, it hasn't just had a huge growth spurt!

Total weight gain/loss? I'm 61 kg today which is 0.2 kg heavier than my starting weight and totally unsurprising as we've been on holiday for the last week and I've had Chinese, KFC, pizza and way too many snacks!

Waist?  I probably ought to start measuring at some point...

Stretchmarks?  Nothing yet and I've not actually used my tummy butter this week.  I will at some point but I guess second pregnancy syndrome has kicked in and I'm just being lazy!

Maternity clothes?  No need yet, hopefully for a while, although I am still wearing my leggings from my last pregnancy four years later!

Sleep?  Sleep  was actually much better on holiday with Oscar sleeping 8-5:30/6 most nights so I got quite a bit, making sure I was in bed by 10ish every night too.

Best moment this week?  Having a wonderful holiday with our friends and seeing Oscar so happy all week.

Movement?  Nothing yet, maybe about halfway to feeling something though!

Food cravings?  Carbs, carbs and more carbs.  Lots of comfort food like jacket potatoes and macaroni cheese... oh, who am I kidding?  I'm not craving anything other than just food!

Food aversions? Nothing much at all this week.  I've been eating more often on holiday and making sure to not let my stomach get empty and it has definitely made a difference.

Gender?  It's gotta be a boy, surely.

Labour signs?  Noooo.

Pregnancy symptoms?  Weirdly I still have very tender boobs which has been a symptom for almost four weeks now, I certainly don't remember it being there for so long last time.  It isn't an issue at all but it's noticeable when I touch them.  My exhaustion has been better for being on holiday, sleeping better and just generally getting out and about more in the fresh air.  

Belly button in or out?  In.

What I miss?  Daylight!  Since the clocks went back I've noticed that my eyesight is terrible for doing anything at night such as jigsaws or colouring, I find the glare makes it hard to tell colours apart.  Plus the dark nights are just generally miserable. 

What I am looking forward to?  Getting back to some routine on Monday.

Upcoming appointments/scans?  Nothing now until my midwife appointment on 23 November. 

Weekly wisdom?  Whatever you expect to happen probably won't.  We've had a few incidents lately where we have planned something we expected Oscar to love and he's struggled with it/hated it and then we were super nervous about the holiday and he was amazing and so happy.

Milestones?  I don't think I've really met any milestones this week...?

Bump Picture:

Friday, 5 November 2021

Pregnancy - 7 weeks

 How far along?  7 weeks  

How big is baby?  The size of a gummy bear.

Total weight gain/loss? I'm 60.6 kg this week so just 0.2 kg down from starting weight and 0.9 kg on.

Waist?  I've not measured this week again, just couldn't be bothered. 

Stretchmarks?  None as yet, I've been using my tummy butter intermittently but not putting a huge amount of effort in yet.

Maternity clothes?  No need yet, hopefully for a while.

Sleep?  Sleep has been abysmal this week.  With the clock change, Oscar's birthday, ridiculously early wake-ups and Oscar refusing to let me go back to sleep in a morning I've had nowhere near enough and I am absolutely exhausted.  

Best moment this week?  Seeing our little bub's heartbeat on the scan.

Movement?  Nothing yet, way too early.

Food cravings?  Anything meaty like sausages and burgers (or the meat-free Linda McCartney mozarella burgers) and just general plain, bland things.  Lots of carbs too.

Food aversions?  Just food in general for the last week, I've had to really fancy something to eat it, not had much appetite and my IBS has kicked in so if I eat too much I get an upset stomach with cramps.

Gender?  I don't think we even make girls!

Labour signs?  No.

Pregnancy symptoms?  Everything. I'm exhausted, I'm moody, I'm nauseous, I feel hot and faint every time I stand up or try to do anything for more than a few minutes.  I've had an IBS flare up and I'm just generally really feeling in the midst of the first trimester.

Belly button in or out?  In.

What I miss?  Sleep.  All of the sleep.

What I am looking forward to?  Going on holiday, although I'm slightly apprehensive about it with Oscar at the moment.

Upcoming appointments/scans?  Nothing now until my midwife appointment on 23 November although I have booked in with the IVF counsellor on 22 November just to check in on my mental health a little.  I was offered another scan at Sheffield in a fortnight but I think I'm going to cancel is as it's a lot of effort going all the way there. 

Weekly wisdom?  Let things go.  I'm essentially doing the absolute bare minimum at the moment and taking the time to chill out and look after myself on the rare occasions I get time to myself.

Milestones?  Seeing a heartbeat!

Bump Picture: