Saturday, 24 September 2016

IVF & Intimacy!

I've broached this subject in an earlier post, during the ovarian stimulation phase but it's arisen again.  As I had egg collection on 5th September and we are not planning to start out FET until my cycle in November I thought we'd get back to intimacy for a while in between.  Unfortunately this has proven to be incredible difficult.

We're managing to keep things afloat but 2 (nearly 3) weeks post egg collection I'm still very uncomfortable.  I've got a relatively constant ache in my left ovary (I've spoken to my nurse and as it's more of an annoyance than a terrible pain she's not too worried).  Whilst this is easy to ignore most of the time it makes penetration quite uncomfortable.  I'm also still pretty constantly exhausted from my normal EDS issues and all the hormones trying to sort themselves out.

All in all I feel like I'm being a pretty crap wife at the moment as all I want to do when I get in bed is curl up and go to sleep.  I know that I shouldn't feel so bad considering what I'm putting my body through but that's not ALS' fault and he shouldn't be punished for it.

We've been out today for dinner and a movie and we all know where that's meant to end but I just feel nervous about it being painful and worrying that there's something not quite right.  I keep thinking I should just get it over with, which is not a healthy way to feel about intimacy with your husband.  I feel incredibly unsexy and I'm really hoping this goes away soon so we can go back to our normal relationship and I can stop feeling like I'm being a rubbish wife!

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